Every morning, even before I wake up, I subconsciously think about how fat, ugly and unwanted I am (always) and begin to hate myself. This is ridiculous, I know. But what more can you do as and extremely body-conscious person?
It’s always the same. I wake up and open my eyes and think, ‘Why am I not beautiful? Why am I so fat and ugly?’
I am so stressed out to find out that I have gained weight. I mean, I have eaten more lately and am on my period, but UGH I hate to see myself gain weight. It really, literally depresses me. I know I shouldn’t fast or starve, but all I can think of doing when I am bloated, fat, and ugly is to eat as little as possible and work out like a maniac.
So insecure. I hate being insecure. Why am I so uncomfortable with myself and my body and my everything?!
so I’ve been off paleo diet for a while…because…..I don’t even know. I just didn’t. I gained some weight and I think it’s time to get back on track and also focus more on this blog.
new day starting today! It was Chuseok in Korea, which is pretty much equivalent to the USA Thanksgiving. we eat, drink, spend time with family, etc. I’ve been eating whatever (unhealthy) until yesterday, and it is OVER NOW.
Back to healthy lifestyle and paleo lifestyle.